waga booboo

did you know

something something

disorganized run on thoughts are a sign of

what

i mean you cant just say that

my heart is beating way too fast right now

cbd makes me shaky i always forget and it sounds good until it hits and im shaky

in the peace of my home i am safe.

in the peace of my home i am safe.

in the peace of my home i am safe.

every day i tell myself this. i must be convinced. i will be convinced. i am convinced.

eventually the illusion is broken. i spiral. i fall apart. whats new. always picking up the pieces.

i gasp for air and the surface tension breaks. its like i opened my eyes but the heartburn wont stop its because im so nervous i dont know my im so nervous what am i nervous about what am i running from is that why im writing to run to keep running to 

my hands are so fucking sweaty. i hate trying to type with sweaty, shaky hands. this sucks. 

anyways.

lately ive been selling a lot of things online. making space, clearing up room, fung shway and shit or whatever. and of course money, i like to make money. 

but i find that the more i sell the more i want to sell. and like keep clearing things.

if you look at my shops as a total summation and were to browse things forwards, itd tell a story of sorts id like to think. though now its less cohesive, as selling online has become less of a hobby and more of a way of life for me. as is being a brokeass.

which i guess would be evident.

im not gonna like analyze the story of my shops or anything though lol, i guess i just thought that was cool. but maybe kind of creepy! your online presence is extensive and ever reaching! EVERYTHING you post can and will be used against you in this court. that little snippet of your face in the photos of your online shop, the partial photo of an id card left in shot on a photo for a review of a local restaurant. so easy to stalk people these days ^-^jk

(sorry if this writing is disorganized, i stopped like every five seconds to answer messages about sales because i am a slave to bills)

do you ever sell stuff online? where do you sell things? i sell on mercari, depop, vinted, poshmark, ebay, and peer to peer on reddit, as well as in person at sales sometimes if i can find low cost ones to participate in. ive been doing this type of stuff for 10+ years. at this point its second nature. i love knowing little parts of me are all over. everywhere. the small influence i have on all these random peoples lives. its fun.