local con!!! 6/4/24

Con 

Lot happened

There was lot of stuff 

I'm so tired but it was fun 

But my feet hurt SO much 

I went early, I was there all day 

I spent SO MUCH money. I have. So many pins and keychains and necklaces 

I ended up eating nothing, food lines are scary and I had to do a DND oneshots at lunch time

That was super fun btw. Loved it. DND is always fun 

Then I walked some more and spent some more money

Also I like. Prepared a few lil squares of paper with lil cat doodles and texts like "you look cool" "nice cosplay" cus I'm unable to talk to people like a normal human being 

At some point I was walking in the outdoor area w all the food, n I was on a sidewalk n someone walking past me, I didn't even see the mfer, just goes "Emo." The same way you'd walk past someone while calling them a slur. 

Like okay? I literally have a mcr shirt. That I made btw. You're not insulting, you're describing me. Like thanks. That's what I'm going for. 

Also we're literally at a con. Did u say it to every alt fucker you walked past? 

I didn't even look back to who was saying it cus it was so fast n it's crowded so u can't rlly stop just there n look back yk 

+ it just left me confused? For one sec I had to register what just happened

And then 19 seconds later this cosplayer comes to me n is like hey can I take a pic w you n I was like sure? 

Now I wasn't in cosplay mode. I just have lot of chains and necklaces today and uh more apparent eye makeup. Yk special occasion outfit cus as much as I love all these things going around, I just need to crowich down or sit ona bus for them to get stuck and stuff. It's dangerous things. Why do you think alt ppl are extinguishing. We're risking our lives out here.

There was so much fucking genshin. There may have been more genshin than hp. Actually I don't know. It's a tie between the two. It's crazy. And unfortunately this year we have a new plague. H*zbin fucking h*tel. At the stand, people cosplaying em. 

We used to be a united nation 

Disheartening. Sad. And don't even let me start on the stands. The pins. And the artworks. Like babe you're such a good artist. 

Draw something cooler. 

I'm sorry for the rant but I was born a hater 

Except when I'm not a hater

So it's like 5-6 pm I'm walking around for the nth time

And on the stands I saw before I spot a face I know. Oh I fucking know that face what the fuck is that face doing here

So my brain starts going in complete chaos, double check, yes.

It's the guy I met at another local con two days ago that ifucking instantly crushed on and I thought I'd never see again especially at THIS con. SOMEBODY NEEDS TO POST ON HIS IG (THAT I STALK) WHEN HES GOING TO PLACES. I GOT A HEART ATTACK

AND THEN I PANICKED EVEN MORE 

and then after a few more walking around aimlessly I was like okay let's go 

I wasn't ready tho

I had the lil piece of paper ready with the cat and the fucking "you look cool". In my hands

And then I approached the stand and just started looking non suspiciously at the art n likem he was looking down writing or smth. And with the noise, and my mask it's hard to start a Convo

And he wouldn't fucking look up enough to use the move "eye contact that makes you understand I want to interact with you" and like. He's so. Guys not to be gay on main but omg. Oh. I don't know what it is they put in alt transmascs with bug brown eyes but I just. I stop working. Even more.

Listen when you're ace, attraction is weird. I just. Want to look more and more and more and just admire his pretty face like it's a painting in a museum. I don't wanna do things w him I just start looking at someone and can't stop, looking is a hell of a drug. And omg he had dark makeup again. Oh his eyes

And his nose. He has one of my fave types of noses. And he's just. Oh. I just. 

Full gay panic. I had an extreme gay panic. Talking? What's that? Don't remember that. So I was so awkward and scared of actually getting his attention I just put the piece of paper on near what he was writing/drawing and just ZOOMED 

Speed. Yk the gay walk? Faster. Gay panic walk. The newspaper will talk ab a paranormal phenomenon. Is it a bird is it a plane no it's me getting into another pavilion because I saw someone I WROTE POEMS AB. UNHINGED POEMS. ID LIKE TO REMIND THE COURT.

NO COURT WE DONT HAVE THEM ON OUR HANDS THEYRE UUUH SOMEWHERE THO 

AND WHEN I SAY UNHINGED, I WANT THE COURT TO KNOW I MEAN. CRAZY CRAZY

THE JUDGE REMEMBERS THEM RIGHT? YES EXACTLY YOUR HONOR EXACTLY MY POINT 

So I do this and then disappear like batman into another pavilion for a while 

And I text the gc I frequent on discord. It's a server not a GC but whatever.

I try to make a plan on what I should do the second time I try to inter fucking act

It takes a while of texting and trying to hype myself up

And in the gc I'm like okay first I tell him I like his makeup then what. Oh what ab asking for ig is this how people do it 

You heard it here first folks. I. Have negative rizz. Horrible at this. Can't do it

The council (guy in general chat) wanted me to say at the end that I liked him. Which is just crazy. Was not gonna say that. It's big if I manage to say hi.

So the con is ending in like half an hour n I hype myself up enough n go 

Now I don't. I don't remember exactly the words. Listen it's hard remembering words I just have his brown eyes in my mind n that's it.

So I try real sneaky to just look at the art. Again. This is the worst deja vou everrrrr

N I just tell him oh I like your makeup , n he's like oh thanks for the price of paper before 

N it's so awkward cus like aaaaaaaah yk? Yk.

N I'm like uuuh do u have Instagram n he gives me a contact card aaaaah and then I'm like oh wer eu maybe in like (insert here name of other local con) n he's like oh ya I think I saw u there maybe n I'm like uuuh thx bye 

AAAAAAAAAAAH

I'm so 

AAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAH.

That's it. That's the end of blog post. Bye.