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guys im sooooo coooll and sooooo silly (i have a mock ap exam tmr....erm) but anyways i just wanted to talk about like changing and being afraid that this growth and change isn't some improvement on how expression is in oneself but a change to oneself, personality wise and mind wise i suppose. (why did i switch to formality um i didnt mean to sowwy) continuing though, i kind of been thinking about this a lot since recently ive been feeling okay in my own skin, like, feeling okay and comfortable when i dress or do or feel feminine. ive always known i wasnt exactly cis, like its always been a feeling that im just me. i dont and didnt like being labeled to some binary role. i specifically say binary in this instance because to try and reassure myself that im not in someway detransitioning (mentally or socially ig), i just remind myself or tell myself 'yeah im non binary, im transmasc or wtv.. i like he/they better and dont care much about about being seen as a girl or being told she' (even if pronouns dont necessarily match gender but thats another whole "radical" idea) which is true yk ig??!?!?!? it scares me that i might be wrong about who i am and how i feel comfortable looking at myself. there are times where i dont mind calling myself or hearing others tell me im a girl because i feel girl, i really do sometimes. sometimes. and i say this because, for me, gender feels like an emotion most of the time. i get gender euphoria from feeling or looking masculine, androgynous, but feminine as well. like, im not sure ive ever said it on here but ill say or put my status/mood as "girl"/feeling so girl. because i mean exactly that!! or when i say i feel so boy. theyre more so feelings to me because if i dont feel eiter, i dont feel eiter. i feel neutral and feel just me. not a constricting gender role or anything. i think thats enough of this rant. i just wanted to know if any one felt the same or felt tempted to give their own feelings or opinions. its cool to see similar or different experiences n all. (ps idk what category but i hope it gets views or smth. i hope someone returns my little call to the void)