stirring the pot

the boy i fell in love with has a girlfriend today

the boy i fell in love with fell in love with me once too

and seeing him with her makes my blood boil

he was never mine

i pushed him away in search of lust

and instead of returning to comfort i neglected him in shame

but he found me again

and instead of reaching out to try to be friends once more

i remembered how he was never mine and he never tried to tell me the truth

words unspoken never calm my mind, huh

so i typed in his number

the only nonfamily one i know

and texted him in unfamiliar context

“Does it hurt to remember me?”