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sometimes wishing I had someone irl to talk with, or someone who'd go thru a blizzard for me. I do so much for others just to be treated like a goddamn rug.

it's times like these where my depression gets worse and want nothing to do with life, suicidal thoughts are constantly coming into mind.

I tried my hardest to pretend to be happy but it just gets exhausting y'know? I can't keep pretending i'm fine and okay when all I want to do is die.

( I literally just sounded like a jealous bitch on this part, so I deleted it lmao)

I just genuinely believe I shouldn't be here, or with anyone. I've got nothing left to give anymore.