i suck at playing guitar

now that im finally back home, i went back to learning how to play acoustic guitar, and i didnt remember it was so hard. and its so fucking exhausting, making the same mistake over and over again. i just wanna give up. every little thing that i put myself to do is so hard to do. its hard to get up and do something remotely productive. and its ever harder to fail at it. makes me wanna go back to bed and never get out again. i try to practice every day, but im just unable to keep a habit. at least a good one. and failing at everything all the time is driving me insane.

i really hope someday i finally learn how to play this shit. and f i read this in the future, already knowing how to play guitar, be proud of yourself, old isa. because you never really thought that you would do it.