kid me

i was talking to my friend just now and somehow we got to the topic of me as a kid, so i started searching pics of myself on my phone. and i found them. and then i remembered, that i can never see pictures of myself as i kid. i just turn so fucking sad, idk why. younger me was so innocent. and so broken. if she was a fictional character, yall would be like "damn, she deserved better", cause she did. she deserved way better than that. i just wanted to meet her again and hug her, put her in a box and protect her from everything that would eventually happen. 

and the worst is, i barely remember what happened. my childhood is a big mistery. so, when i look at her, i barely know her. and it hurts. a lot. you have no idea.