mhhh 30/3/24

Okay so, one thing i noticed is like, my classmates acknowleding? my existence more?

now, I changed nothing of how I treated 'em, no talking, diff bus n so on

a week ago it happened at photography class, but we had to "team work" cus one had to take pics, one had to be the "Model" one had to hold those reflective thingies... so yk we had to talk. So i took pics, giving instructions to the "model" with no cold tone or anything, normal chill talking yk. i "did the model" and followed orders. We looked at the pics and discussed if it needed less iso and whatnot. 

But like few others, id leave earlier for train reasons, say bye to the prof to be respectful n id hear em say it back, they ackowledged a couple of times when i said smth in class

today, photography class was outside around the city, it ended, i was taking the last pics on like historical stairs, one of em walked past me n i think said bye to specifically? like i wasnt too distant from the others but also she didnt say it like loud n "in general" yk? but also they dont say hi when getting in class so i dont think so?

whats? going on?

is it cus one of our profs said in the near future we'll have an assignment where we gotta "teamwork" or whatever n theres no room for arguments?

personal theory: Purple recently has been more distant? Since that argument some time ago there has been a small crack, and for personal reasons + feeling shitty cus of the arguments shes been having with a prof, shes talking less  n stuff w them. 

At the photography class where we needed to group work she like did lit nothing even the prof noticed. Few weeks ago one classmate accidentally got closed inside a section of the school and texted a gc, i was in another section n it's none of my business but Purple was in the same room as me? She did not leave the chair? Went to check? Didnt text on the gc suggesting that she could go looking for a guardian w the keys? No nothing. They seem to not know her whereabouts when if shes late or smth.

and so subconsciously or not theyre less cold w me as a way to fill the space of purple? idk maybe im psychoanalyzing too much but it's like. peculiar yaknow?

In case of that future assignment, I'll just do like i did for photography class: it means nothing. Prof wants teamwork, I'll give it. I still dont wanna hve nothing to do with em. 

But school is more important. Showing profs i can do stuff is more important. Maybe these small things mean something, maybe they mean nothing. We'll see.