no alarms and no surprises, please

i just listened to no surprises by radiohead. ironically, it caught me on surprise, bc my 00s playlist was on shuffle.

i think that if you could turn a person into a song, i would be this one. i know it would make more sense if it was a linkin park song, since its the band i connect the deepest, but no surprises is just so me. i was amazed when i listened to it for the first time. its very calm, and inherently melancholic, just like me. and right now, when i just listened to it, i realized it reminds me of myself as a kid. of how lonely i felt back then, and still feel. and feel at this very moment. of how good things could have been, if certain things didnt happen. of how happy i could be. and of how i wanted to go back in time and hug my young self, and private her from all the pain. its so fucking sad. 

just. like. me.