Started Monk/Hermit Mode

Things have been difficult lately and I am now a college student, feeling extremely dumb, and overall I feel like I'm on my way to becoming a complete failure if I keep going on with my habits like this. So I created an account here in spacehey to simplify and to avoid the common social medias where it is over stimulating and where people who knows me are there. 

Reason for Monk/Hermit mode: 
I want to come out a different person after this. Someone who has changed for the better and will not be recognized by those who knew me. 

also, I did not have a good reputation and image with the people who knew me and I've been feeling extremely guilty and stuck in this feeling of shame that I felt that if I disappear and change myself, their perception of me will be gone and I know that's impossible but I wish that someday, people may say the things the negative things I've done before but they can never say that I am still that same person. and if they do, at least, by that time I will have changed and made my mindset better that their thoughts wouldn't matter because I know for a fact that this is who I am now and that was me in the past which is gone.