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The days may grow warm, as the sun comes out with pride, but the snow in all its beauty drips away
I really like winter. It lets me bake and spend time with those I love. When I realized my ex hated winter, it made me start to realize just how different we really were (even if he was the one that broke up with me after a few years.) Some of my best memories are cloaked in snow and cold, and the chill in the air always brings me comfort, bringing the memory that I'm alive. I try to remind myself of life with every opportunity, to not have a second spent in a death like haze.
When was the last time you thought about being alive, dear reader? Or are you in that haze right now? Just going day to day, through the motions. What do you think being alive means? Is it just simply the act of something breathing, or something more?
Sorry about my stupid ramblings, Spring right? Ive always wondered why its popularly the most loved season. I get allergies bad so im not exactly a big fan >.< I wish for winter to stay, it comforts me. I will miss my late night winter walks, the wind bringing a chill down my spine. The feeling that the cold could just completely enrapture you.
I will enjoy the flowers, at the very least. I very well may finally start a garden this year! I would love to tend to my own small area of life, to have a mass of color sprout by my hand. Bringing a little bit of color to the world, I guess
If only I had a moment where im not sneezing :p
-Rachel Rosethorn
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Rose
There is a comforting melancholy I really enjoy about Wintertime, the world begins to slow with the encroaching cold and I feel as though I can finally catch my breath. Freezing air stinging my lungs but filling them completely, no humidity clogging up my body. Spring is too hot, and I never feel comfortable. I eagerly await the cool kiss of Autumn wind the second it is above 75 Fahrenheit.
I find that being alive is much less a state of being and more about what I make of my time. I have become much more lenient with my "me time" lately, spending it more with friends even when I just want to run away from the world. I haven't felt the "haze" in a while and I'm scared for when it inevitably comes back.
I wish the best to you and your garden :>
Apologies for the delayed reply, I wanted to try to be in the right mindset to more properly respond yknow?
That feeling of slowness to me is something beautiful, the lack of life, this chill, uncaring force that brings death, yet is a comforting presence as well. If heat is oppressive the cold allows one to fully exist, if only for a moment
and about the heat, you and me both haha. I dont stand particularly well to the heat, and especially dry heat. Once it gets to that point I get awful nosebleeds, bleh
Do you think time with friends is inherently more valuable than time alone? Or is it a balance of the two? What gives you the strength to not run in those moments? I would love to know! And while that haze of fog in life always comes, the thing you have to remember is that as any fog, it lifts
These days I feel like the phantom of the opera, hiding myself and my scars from the world, with only the beauty of my own creativity. And.. Maybe Im happy that way. I hope you can find your happiness too
-Rachel Rosethorn
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The heat absolutely ruins me. I get overheated so easily and then I just shut down. Dry is the default where I'm from and the sticky humidity we get in late spring/early summer is the absolute worst thing ever. You step outside and it clings to your clothes and neck like saran wrap.
I need a balance of time spent alone and with friends. I tend to get overwhelmed if I spend too much time with people, even just on VC with close friends, I need a solid 12 hours of just sitting in my room doing my own thing, or my mood very apparently changes. My friends are very understanding, they know that when I need to go it isn't a personal issue. I think that just comes from years of knowing each other. Before that, I would just get so upset I would get intense throbbing migraines that would last hours.
I have found much to be happy about, I am just aware of how much growth there is left for me. Something else to look forward to :)
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