chaazzy's 48

tomorrow is chester birthday, and of course, i would spend aaallll day listening to his music and watching his concerts, and thinking of him. and probably would draw him again. i'd do all of this, if i was at home. but im fucking not. tommorow i will spend three or four fucking hours with my ass down on a bus seat, going to a boring little town with boring little people and stay there for two days. i begged my mom for me not to go but she forced me to. so i wont be able to celebrate my idol's first birthday that i attend. i wont be able to cry over cute videos of him, or sing my lung out of his songs. all i can do is try to stand still while hearing masterpieces on that godamn bus.

seriously, im so fucking frustrated.