Job moment

I’m really nervous today, because of several things

1. I START MY JOB TODAY. paychecks are going to be so awesome. I can’t wait until I get the first one. Of course it’ll probably be like 1 dollar but I’ll take it. Now I can buy things for myself and others!

2. Dear god am I confused. I’m getting anxiety, but in a weird way, everything is so confusing right now. I keep lurking and refreshing like every ten minutes to be honest. I know it’s not “healthy” to look but man I don’t even care anymore. I know what I want, I just hope this person wants the same. I DONT KNOW I’ve been freaking out all freaking day about this.. I can’t stop screen recording things I know will be gone.. THANK GOD FOR THAT! I keep I am the beast that blah bluh…. I keep WATCHING I CANT STOP….. gang basically my life is so confusing and my feelings are all stirred up, but it’s so exciting or and anxiety inducing at the same time………… AND NOW WORK?? I’m only 16……… why is 17 creeping up so fast!! It feels like I’m anxious for no reason, but I have EVERY REASON!!!! Things flip on a dime! And I hate that! But I like now, at least I think! I can’t even tell,,..,..,,.,…,.,,,.,.,..,.,…,,l,la. Okay bye guys

Wait number three is the worst of all..but you dear reader are going to have to ask about that one, and I’m not telling just anyone……… is it worth knowing? It could change your life! Or it could do nothing at alll……….. who knows, not me