my weird uncle

im staying in my uncle's house and, its being weird. its beem a time since i started suspecting something happened to me as a kid but my brain kinda "erased" the memories. i have plenty of reasons to believe that (orr im going insane). i started thinking of who couldve done something like that to me, and almost instantly thought of my uncle. i remember of him saying that we used to sleep together. that has to be at least a little weird. uncle and niece? i cant be crazy. anyway, he clearly has more affection for me, even more than with my cousin, that is his goddaughter. he huggs and kisses me a lot, and keep asking me if i love him. it was the first thing he asked me when we met at the airport. according to him, he always asked me that when i was younger. i dont remember shit. he is very loving with everyone, but seems to be way more with me.

a couple nights ago, he said that we were going to drink a whole bottle of wine, just the two of us. "for you to get really drunk". man, seriously, who tf says this to a 14y girl? also, just now, he asked me when we were going to "love each other". in front of everyone. like, no one thinks this is weird? 

i dont remember much from the last times we met, only that he made very weird comments about my body. since before the trip, i was planning to see the way he acted with me. and hes acting weird, man. very weird. im just waiting to see if hes gonna try to do something.