Idk I guess venting

I’m really worried that there something wrong with me. Not necessarily in the sense of like, something that can be diagnosed (I mean maybe) but I more so mean a flaw about myself. I worried that I’m completely oblivious to it, that I’ll keep denying it and never improve. What’s even worse is that I worry that all of that isn’t true, and that I’m being lead to believe there is something wrong with me, but if that’s the case, is it actually just me being oblivious again? I’m stuck in this loop of feeling one way but being told things are another and I don’t know whether to believe myself or others and I’m just so sick of it. I want to be able to just say fuck off, but at the same time they’re probably right. Fuck man I just wanna be normal this sucks