# 1; side order!

waow!! so my first real post here. i know i'm probably going to be talking to the void most of the time here but i'm used to it anyway 'cause that's all i do on my priv twitter where i spend all my time. but if i see one more ad or checkmark or bot or temu logo or Anything i'll probably end up tearing my eyeballs out so here i am— i've missed browsing forum sites and customizing my profiles... the way the internet was intended to be used

i tried gaiaonline and while i feel like it would be fun if i were able to learn my way around it, i was just overwhelmed with shit right off the bat lmao (not to mention half of the site is broken). i wish spacehey had an option for post signatures in the forums but i can live without it.

i'm thinking of treating this place where i can just... share silly experiences with the void. my priv twitter is where i post quick thoughts and self indulgent writings and yearning and mental breakdowns. this will be where i talk to myself as if i'm having a conversation with someone else and just hope someone enjoys it or joins in. that, and posting poetry. i made this page with that in mind actually— i want to post my poetry to a shitty obscure corner of the internet just like pete wentz did on livejournal for almost a decade. i have my notebook where i write poetry next to me. i'll probably upload one after i post this. i'm considering uploading art here too but i'm not sure if i want to upload primarily to here or get into the habit of uploading to my newgrounds. i won't let myself upload art anywhere though until i can reliably get into the habit of lacing my uploads with nightshade and the like.

(nightshade was developed by the university of chicago.... you know what Else started in chicago....... [I AM FORCIBLY TAKEN OUT BACK AND SHOT])

it's almost 3am as i type this sentence; i'm slightly baked but less than i'd like to be because my tolerance is going up again. i gotta conserve my resources cause i don't got the money to be spending on grass all the time but i have a bad habit of hitting my pen at every minor inconvenience because a lot of things have been really stressful and shitty for me lately.

i have class at noon, i'm lying in bed in my dorm listening to fall out boy. which is just about all i ever do. lay in bed, refuse to do any of my classwork until the last possible minute, wait for the girl that doesn't like me back to extend our snap streak, smoke weed and listen to fucking fall out boy. life is an endless cycle of pain BUT at least i have fall out boy (who i see again in 31 days... 🥰) AND there was a ripple in the monotonous daily routine today... the second wave of the splatoon 3 dlc came out today and oh my god it's better than i could have ever imagined.

now i'm a little dumb so i didn't understand much of the technical stuff they showed in the previews i only knew what the aesthetic was like but i didn't have much of a grasp on anything else so i didn't know what to expect. but actually playing it now it's nothing less than perfect— which is to be expected because nintendo has a bit of a track record with NEVER FUCKING MISSING when it comes to kind of literally everything about splatoon. i wanted to beat it as quickly as possible but had to stop after a while... which is to be expected again considering it's no secret that this and octo expansion are both intended to be more challenging than the base story modes of s2/3 respectively. BUT THE POINT IS I'M HAVING A FUCKING BLAST. i sat on the phone playing it with my best friend, halfway across the country, for a few hours and i'm already so eager to start playing more tomorrow. i'd keep playing now but i can tell i'd play like shit right now and i need to go to bed soon anyway. i'm excited to see where the story goes— my best run so far is 16f!! hopefully i'll do better tomorrow

uuuuuhh i'm reaching my yap capacity (which is kind of surprising me to be honest but i'm not complaining) so i am going to post that poem and yearn myself to sleep. it kinda hurts. it honestly hurts really fucking bad. but i'm used to it! i'm used to it so i'm fine. i'm so frustrated with so much in my life right now but i'll be fine because the time always passes or whatever. it's fine

one more thing— the 2022 riddler account on here fills me with such immense joy. please never stop doing what you do

sweet dreams.. ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁

xo qr