R4NT #1

I have been looking into colleges since I do plan on continuing to study and major in computer science.In reality,i want to do research psychology soooooo bad but i would literally go crazy.Like I would'nt stop until I discover something that blows my mind and I go from psychologist to psychopath like full on tweaking,eye twitching and everything.I also want to do activist-journalism but people I appreciate would probably end up hurt if I actually discover something and write about it,exposing it to the public and/or I would most likely be murdered before turning 40 lol.I dont exactly love or hate computer science but its very interesting and easy for me,also the U.S invests a lot in STEM education so its my safest bet for now.I get so anxious when looking at colleges because there is so many choices and so many things can happen,there is so many possibilities. What if i reject an acceptance from a school that in another universe i choose to attend and like become fucking rich or something and since in this universe i did not choose it,I do not get to live that life and regret my choice the rest of my existence? Do yall get what i mean? Or what if i end up getting hate crimed or something in the school that i chose?UGHHHHH,THERE ARE TOO MANY CHOICES WITH DIFFERENT OUTCOMES. It sucks that i dont get to be like those teens who only have to worry about what outfit i will wear tomorrow like in those netflix series. I just wanna get out of this loser crappy town and see more of what the world has to offer. Im only a junior rn, i hope that it gets easier to choose in senior year.I guess I can only hope to get a good look at all of my choices and end up going with the 'correct' choice.