long time no see

it is monday, february 19 and i just quit my job (again). i thought it was gonna be something i could stick out but my mental health is simply not worth $18.50. i'm just hoping it doesn't become a big thing and i can start looking for new jobs in peace. trying my best not to feel like a baby but it's hard. i think when i'm feeling upset like that i just need to remind myself how much stress and fear was created at that job and how unhelpful it was to my mental health. inpatient acute psychiatric services are simply not for me, especially when there is no security (why was i the security? idk wtf i'm doing?)

i loved connecting with patients and i was by no means bad at my job but my physical wellbeing is the most important thing!!!!!

i have many thoughts but that's all that's coherent for right now. ok. much love to all.