Doctor rant

I hate going to the doctors so much. I hate it. Literally everything about it. Even just the like social anxiety of setting it up and stuff makes it difficult but then I actually see the doctor about the issue and I feel hella judged and self conscious like it could be anything and I’ll be like “does he think I’m lying? Am I describing it right? Does he think I’m weird? Is this not a symptom? Am I just complaining?” and it’s just like I hate having to know the dates that symptoms occur and I hate having to talk about the symptoms and I hate ittttt alllll but also usually if I go to the doctor the doctor will basically say it’s nothing or its just something minor and that just like triggers something in me idk what. But I know I’m so done with doctors. I’ll go if I can’t breathe or if I go blind or lose a leg or something screw this