complete

always alone in class, nobody to sit with, friends are only on discord servers. chronically online on twitter, lurking on 4chan, sometimes even deeper out of morbid curiousity. the headphones are always on, playing headache inducing music, covered with cheap stickers. everything is covered with cheap stickers. a bunch of colorful kandi bracelets wrapping around freshly cut arms. always new cuts. smell of cigarettes, dog and two-weeks worn hoodies. not too clean. dog's fur covers all the clothes. anime charms and pride pins hanging on the bag, no wonder nobody wants to be friends. hyperfixations hyperfixations hyperfixations. the room is full of posters, plushies and figurines. there are always new coming. there's always money for that. plants everywhere, in need of oxygen. a led stripe loosely hanging off the window curtains hanger, usually purple. helps to focus during late night drawing. nobody would understand it. the whole life is dedicated to online validation. taste of cigarettes doesn't leave, pills swallowed with cheap energy drink, strawberry flavor. evangelion playing on the split screen for the thousanth time. a round of league once in a while, a round in osu, then back to drawing. 

i need someone to complete me