Aug 19 2023 I don't care

Talking to Noah is like talking to a wall our lives are so different and honestly I can tell he's getting sick hearing how bad my life is compared to his. Maybe I'm ment to live my life alone I mean it's possible I gusse cuz no one gives much of a shit about me these days never have they all turn on me. I don't blame them chz I do the same. I just wanted someone to understand me now I feel more bottled up and un easy and paranoid more then ever. Living is just fucking hard. After my attempt in April 2022 I don't wanna kill myself but I hate my fucking life I hate my dad I hate my mom I hate Brett I fucking hate my body I hate everything that I have.