Aug 9 2023 Someone once loved you

Seeing what he said to her about how happy she makes him it shattered a deep part of me im completely over him but he was my first love and seeing him happy with another person while I did everything I could for a year to make him happy with me I talked to him every day I tried to hang out with him alot and do the things he wanted to do without complaint but in the end it was all for nothing I'll always feel I did somthing wrong I'll always be sad when I see him happy because at one point I thought he'd be happy with me but now I'm just a bad memory to him and I want to make him suffer as much as I did one day I'll get my revenge I swear I'll fucking kill him if it gets to that point obviously I have to wait till I'm older and not in high school but he's gonna pay for everything he did to me.