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I've broken up with my boyfriend a couple months ago, if I'm not wrong today its to be 3 months. I dont feel bad. I dont feel about it. Its absurd, I realized that I in fact didnt feel that all to well for a long time. a Long, time. I never felt completely good. Its always ben there, the feeling I got at 13 which will possibly not dissappear. But this was not abut that man at all, its my natural state. I dont feel anyway bad on it.

I began reading The Bell Jar a couple of weeks ago for my english class. My professor was mad. I am much like Esther, and Sylvia excluding my mother. I think like her in an absurd way. its like reading my toughts in english. Do I, belong any where? Because I felt like I did for a while. I was everywhere, I was ominpotent. Until I wasnt.  jesus, oh, laid upon me and I realized I might never belong. God knows I live for this. In a constant crave to be and not to be. I enjoy the casual manner in which Esther relieves her memories. I enjoy her company.

Is it niche (nietzsche) to use Patrick Bateman cutscenes? That was an awful joke.