Depression

lately i've been feeling more depressed and i think winter depression is finally getting to me, alot of the problem wiht it is feeling isolated and extremly lonely.

 I tend to daydream alot so much so i think its actully developed into maladaptive daydreaming which takes time from my day from my real hobbies, yesterday i had a little derealization episode to were i just stared at the mirror and thinking over my situaton and since then i've felt more down.

 i think this has been going on for awhile a mixture of trying to hangout with the one irl friend i have so much im becoming annoying and clingy and the fact of only listening to music and doing nothing else than spin in circles and daydream.

 i know ive mentioned before that im homeschooled but it also kinda kicks my but because i am lazy and i dont want to be but i dont see my house as a working enviroment but rather a place to relax compare that to the fact my parents have to be safe with money and gas is expensive we cant go out much other than nessities and i havent been to the labray in a long time. 

the end point im trying to make or the queston im trying to ask is 

to anyone who has been in a situaton simular to mine or has experienced depression please can you help me my giving me tips to be better, i want to explore the world but with the way it is its impossible and i dont know how to deal with that soul crushing dream so please if you have anything i'll listen i just dont want to fall into a pit i know i can avoid 

thank you to anyone who listened and to enyone who cares be safe and know your loved

 <3

-Army