nothing really

just kinda bored and i was thinking how weird it is that no letter what, everyone will die at some point and you can’t prevent it like isn’t it crazy?? i wish i could know when i’ll die but not how because i believe it’ll make me hella paranoid haha but every time i think about how i can die anytime i just get the rush to do everything like now as i’m writing this i’m scared i don’t live but just exist yk?? but then i remember there isn’t much i can do like i can’t just go on a plane or something like that you have to have things for that (money) and to have that you have to work (time) and so it’s hard to get to just do everything you wanna do so that’s why i’m not doing much