Worthy

At some point in life you have to realize that you only have yourself. 

Some say you have God along beside you, but that divine belief is simply a belief, a hope. And this will only get you so far, when responding to the question if life is worth it or if it gets better, I take an optimistic nihilist approach. Yeah, life is meaninless but thats the beauty of it, life is meaningless that you yourself can create its own meaning. 

Focus on the small things that outweigh the bad, convert the bad into something better, not necessarily good but better. Mindset, something everyone talks about but no one tells you how hard it is to change. Our brain is made up of tons of neurons taht are like plastic, hard but moldable. We can change them into something that benefits us more. Change what you experience or how you experience it, be reminded that not everything will will be great. ONce you recognize that not everything will be "good" all the "bad" stuff that happens to you wont affect you as much. Please take into account that this all comes from a person who has a passive suicide ideation and sh history, I can say that I'm not generally a happy person but I try and that matters. 

When others ask about my future I can confidently tell you all about what I have planned, bur I know and feel that I wont be able to carry it out. Sometimes, what I say is just to benefit others and my own concious, I avoid that anyone can see how miserable I am by always putting the attention on others. 

Even after thinking like this I can recognize that things, yeah things will get better in life and also worse. In the sense that yeah, putting in the effort and having luck it'll get better, that's law. But at the same time it can get worse, this shit isn't linear, it's all just the moment, remeber that you are stuck with yourself for life, you are responsible for your own outlook on life and hw you handle what life throws in your face.

It's your life, make it worth it.