I need to stop neglecting this site

For too long I've been neglecting this site. I created it in my junior year of high school and haven't touched it much since. I think that making a entry every Sunday about how how my week went will keep me motivated and give some new life to this profile.

This week started off strong by having all of my classes cancelled on Monday due to bad weather. That night and early in the morning there was an ice storm and there was a thick (and very slippery) layer over everything. I could barely walk out of my house, it was crazy. It all melted on Tuesday and it's been perpetually damp and dreary since then. During the middle of the week it was really foggy, especially on campus which I fucking love.

Monday night I think that I experienced sleep paralysis for the first time which was terrifying. I woke up from a dream and while I could open my eyes it still felt like I was half asleep and I couldn't move. I heard something talking to me from the pitch black of my room and sensed it moving towards me. As I felt it's weight press down on me I kept thinking "It's just a dream It's just a dream It's just a dream It's just a dream Wake up Wake up Wake up," and I snapped to full consciousness. My heart was beating so fast and learned that what I thought was a demon pressing down on me was just my hand on my leg lol.

I've been feeling quite lonely at school, which I know all universities try their hardest to make you not feel, but being a commuter student who works two jobs and has trouble making friends makes it hard to find a strong sense of community. I'm getting tired of talking to barely anyone during class, eating lunch alone, and going home to do homework or fuck around. I'm looking to alleviate this feeling. I've asked the two friends I have made to eat lunch with me tomorrow and hopefully they'll want to do it with me more often. I also want to join the trivia team and creative writing club. In middle school I was in my school's trivia team and loved it but they didn't have anything like that in high school and I missed it a lot, so I hope that I can get some of that enjoyment back with the quizbowl team here. I want to join the creative writing club because I haven't written in a while and have this idea for a Magnus Archives fanficiton brewing in my mind that I hope I can flesh out while I'm there.

I finished Priory of the Orange Tree this week and loved it! It's the second-longest book I've ever read (the first being Inheritance by Christopher Paolini), and I think that it's length suited it. It's complex story filled its 848 pages, and while it could be a little difficult to keep things straight at times, I believe that splitting it into separate novels would have made that even worse. The last 200 pages or so of the book were my favorite because it was like ohhhhh yeah everything's coming together. I surprised that I finished it in only a little over a month considering its length, but when I really enjoy something I go through it pretty quickly.

On Tuesday I officially hit eight months on testosterone which is really exciting! My voice is really beginning to change and I'm getting a lot more hair! The only change I'm not crazy about is the itchy and painful cyst-like acne that is now completely covering my cheeks. I don't care about acne on a cosmetic basis, but when it causes me genuine physical discomfort I won't put up with it. I'm trying to get medication for it but for the past two weeks something has been going wrong between the dermatologist and the pharmacy where the pharmacy isn't getting any orders that the dermatologist sends. It's incredibly frustrating and I just wish they would fucking figure it out because I'm tired of making phone calls.