01.26.24

Went to the mall today. I’ve got this new technique to calm down my anxiety. Sometimes, when i’m driving somewhere, i’ll get this dooming anxiety. My stomach twists and i feel like if i enter where ever i’m going— i’ll break down. I saw on tiktok, a guy said one way to calm down the body super quickly, is to take a deep breath in, as much as you can; then, top it off with another breath. After that, slowly exhale. A couple of those and it fixed it. 

I went to the mall by myself, since A couldn’t come. I like going by myself though. It wasn’t as overwhelming as when i  was with my dad. I was able to shop, and find what i wanted. I got some jeans, then i got talked into buying 5 victoria secret perfumes. Alongside the bath and body works perfume i had already bought that day. 

Some guy approached me while i was there, he was one of those people who would sell you things from their stand in the middle of the hallway— he was new to the whole thing. He and his brother had set it up, some candles or whatnot. He introduced himself to me, and shook my hand. He said he liked my swagger, which is pretty dope. Game knows game i guess. 

I got pretty overwhelmed when i went into victoria secret. My mom told me i should get fitted while i was there, but i didn’t know how to ask. So i just got some perfumes— which ended up in five perfumes; instead. They all smell the same too, chemicals. I’m watching Twilight New Moon right now. Id be team Jacob if his wig wasn’t so bad.