23/01/24

Works burning me out even tho I don't even work that many hours. Just like having to talk to my students and be all happy and laughing when all I wanna do is bed rot. 

I can't tell if I've gone into a manic or depressive episode like I've been really impulsive and want to do stuff and get small bursts of energy but I can't get out of bed, I'm not even sleeping just scrolling on my phone all day. Ffs I can't stand BPD, I should probably book an appointment with my psych doctors to get this sorted out but idk if I even wanna take my meds anymore I feel like a zombie all the time and the doc's don't even listen to me.