its been a while

ive been so busy and so tired recently. i've just been sleeping almost all day, like im asleep more than im awake. i dont think thats really healthy for me, but oh well. i've gotten a new room and stuff which is cool. sometimes i feel like im a ghost, or a cat whos trying to get out of a room. i feel weak and tired, and i've stopped taking care of myself too. everything feels unreal, and i cant really think straight anymore. i think that theres something wrong with me, to be honest. i dont think i actually have any personality left, its like a empty cookie jar. school makes me feel so weird and i cant really eat properly when im there. ive been blasting music into my ears for the past couple of weeks. i wonder if anyone can hear me. sometimes i think that im the only real person here, and everybody else is simply just apart of my imagination. i dont think that ill ever grow up as a person, my mental age will remain as a kid for the rest of my life. i have more conversations with myself than real people, because im just seen as a weirdo most of the time. i cant really say anything without stammering and its annoying. i want to cut out all of my words.