I need to travel

I need to travel, just for a little while, but i can't. When i say travel I'm not talking about around the city, or to another city here. I need to go to a different country, and I need to do it now. But i can't. I don't have the time, but my entire being craves it. Traveling has always been such an important part of my life, and it's just been too long, and too much right now. It's so strange, since I have a need to have all my things, stability, and also to not be too far away from the people I love. Still I can't shake the restlessness of wanting to see the world. Maybe it's because it's easier living somewhere new, where you're not known. Maybe it's just needing a change of scenery, to not be stuck in routine and forgetting how to live. 

Either way, I need to travel asap. Even if it's just to the neighboring country. I want to breathe. Even breathing in another country feels different than at home. That's not always a good thing, but I think I need a reset. It's not possible for me to appreciate where I am now otherwise.

Luckily I'm at the very least traveling to one of my favorite cities in the country next week, with a long train ride. But I'm so jealous of my father, who's going on vacation soon! Need that too...