03|01.10.24

I had three dreams last night, the first dream was another SA dream. This has got to be my 9th or 10th? This one i was a child and a man had got me to come to his car after swim practice everyday to do it with him. I dreampt it happening, then swim practice, where i also did it with another kid my age in the pool. I got out and it was going to be time for me to go to the man again, and i really didnt want to. So i told my swim instructor and begged her to help me. The man got mad and stalked over to us, and i think he was going to kill the woman, but i woke up. 

The next dream i had was more normal. I was my own age in my own house. I walked past the living room and looked out of the sliding glass door to the backyard. Outside the door was a giant bear, so big that it took up most of the view outside the door. It had wild yellow eyes and we made eye contact. I darted away out of sight to the kitchen to tell my father. But passing a window, i saw it again, and saw it move-- i was scared it was going to ram its way through the door and into the house. 

I told my dad and went to the couch in the TV room to calm down. In real life, i tend to sit on that couch without any pants on and with a blanket over me while watching TV or sketching-- since im usually home alone throughout the day. So in this dream, i did the same. My mother then came into the room with a man i recognized. He was a guy i follow IRL on tiktok, hes around 20, 6'7 and 290lbs. So a pretty big guy. But hes pretty nice, and makes a positive space on his platforms. Anyways, he came with her and she told me he was going to help kill the bear-- since he had past experience with hunting down and killing kangaroo. It was a bit awkward since for some reason, the blanket was only hald on me, which meant my scarred thigh was visible. He looked at me, then left with my mother. I looked down at my leg, and instead of the scars that coat the upper half of my thigh, my thigh was completely covered in them-- from hip to knee. I noticed on some of the scars by my knee, tiny cuts spanned across the preexisting scars. I kinda freaked since i hadnt done that to myself, and i didnt know where it came from. I was pretty freaked out, so i texted my friend, G, and told him everything that happened. He didnt take it seriously though. 

My last dream, i didnt write down so the majority of it is lost or blurred. 

I was young again, in some tall house, kinda like the burrow from harry potter-- but nicer. We were atop a hill, surrounded by sun and more rolling green hills. A town could be seen in the distance, aswell as a lake at the bottom of the cliff. I tried to take a picture out of the window, but everything was too bright, and i was having a hard time seeing. My father in the dream, who was much younger than my father in real life, told me not to go outside, that it was dangerous. He was very wary. I completely disregarded his warning though, since i was way too excited to fullfill childhood desires to explore and be in this new terrain. i had a little backpack on and everything, walked out the door and completely intended to explore, walk to the town and maybe even swim in the lake-- but by then i had already woken up.