gender dysphoria sucks ass wamp womp

I WANT TOP SURGERY SO BAD AHAHHHHSHHSHDGHJSNMBJBSJ

im gonna start wearing my binder more often becuase of how much dysphoria im getting. its just hard cuz its so compressing and it hurtsssss :ccccc but i just think about me with top surgery when im 20 or something and i get all happi :3

when i turn 15 im gonna get a job and then start saving up for surgery. hopefully when im older its easier to get trans surgeries. but if not im glad that melbournes only 2 hours away from me so theres probably some guy there that can cut my tits off

i had to start putting bandaids under my boobs becuase them literally just touching my skin made me so upset. i dont even like refering it as boobs, i just say chest or something dumb like my balls lmao. 

my mother thinks im just "a insecure girl feeling moody". when i tried having a genuine convo about me being trans with her she totally flipped out when i mentioned i wanted top surgery. i feel like if i did get top surgery shes gonna be messaging me like "why did you do that?!?!??!" "thats too much. you were just an insecure teen! you are going to regret this." and im just gonna reply "lmao ive been planning this since i was 12, ive started saving up since i was 15. dont think im gonna regret this when ive been daydreaming about it everyday since i was 12." 

anyway as much as i love being trans boobs suck