Dreams, being bored, and uh whatever else happens :)

today is the second to last day of my 'one blog every day, for one week, for one month.' i was thinking of a topic and thought to discuss dreams. i don't usually have them but that's also not counting daydreams. whenever i do have dreams they're all weird. they'll involve people i know or don't know, sometimes they're more horror-ish, sometimes they're near lucid but not fully in control. (that's usually because i'm aware of being dreaming, just not how to do what i want..) recently i keep having some with someone i haven't spoken with in a while. it was around summer, i think, when i stopped talking to him. he was sort of my boyfriend? then actually was for a week. i was an asshole. i can admit to that. it started off as a dream or two, but i've seen him in my dreams practically four or six times. i think the guilt is getting to me, kind of. i tried reaching out to him, to apologize. he blocked my phone number, and i thought about using ig to reach out to him and apologize. issue is i chickened out and waited, waited for it to eat at me enough to do it. i can't do that now. i told my friend about these dreams when they started. the first day i had gotten my hair dyed blue she told me i looked like ramona flowers. maybe its just that. i thought about the character and thought of him, i guess? i don't know. i like to think of little daydreams and fantasies to distract myself. tonight's blog isn't much, but i hope it gave some entertainement or something to think about. lol :)