01.06.24

Last night i took a long shower late at night. 1am or so? I wore my thin, striped tanktop as i stepped in. It was a strange feeling, warm water made the thin fabric warm to the touch. It was nice. I filled the tub with warm water and sat down, knees to my chest. I stayed like that for a bit, thinking, and imagining i was sitting in the shoreline of a lake. Then, it suddenly started to rain at that lakeside. I turned the showerhead on and let the water become cool. I mainly take warm and hot showers, so the sense of the heat being replaced by cool water is a foreign, but not unwelcomed feeling. The fabric of my tanktop became stretchy, in a way that i wasn't aware it could do. It was nice to wear something in the water. Its nice to take a shower and not feel exposed. I want to go swimming now, i want winter to end and spring to takefold. I want it to be warm and i want to swim in the rain. I want to be alone, and i want to be void of the buzzing noise in your ear of someone saying 'rain means thunder!' 'get out of the water when it rains, that's not safe!'

I want to be alone in my experience. 

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