"Not-Therapy" therapy (CW- mentions of sewerslide & sh sort of)

i've been told that i don't need therapy and that therapy won't work for me. however, i am also told that holistic healing is the way to go. now, i'm not the type to be against natural remedies and things of that nature. i have friends and family members who believe in that kind of thing. i do not. i believe in logical thinking and try not to think too hard about what happens afterward, what magic is, etc. today i had an appointment with this holistic, electromagnetic guy. i go to him a lot on account of my mom. this whole, 'electromagnetic' therapy is supposed to be about healing and helping me with my anxiety. he asked how i was and i said, "fine. but, over the break i got a little worse.." i ended up actually kind of talking about what happened and how i felt. i usually lie about stuff there, i won't lie. he told he had attempted before (because i talked about how i used to s3lfh4rm). he gave me support and affirmations and assurance. all that good stuff. i feel good. i felt good as well. i want to genuinely get better. i'm trying, i think. it feels nice to not feel so alone sometimes.

i've felt alone for sometimes now. i think ill dive more into that in a different post, on a different day. this is a little rushed because it's almost 12 and i try to post one blog post everyday. thank you to the friends who read and any possible strangers who stumble upon this. i hope you all feel good too.

:)