new year cleansing - blog update (read)

finally made 90% of my blogs private... i'd been meaning to for a while. condensed ~20something pages into 4ish. honestly i've realized that i'm an incredibly private person in most ways and i didn't really appreciate 19 year old me plastering the entirety of my senior year of highschool on here, so its all gone from the public except some poems and things. part of it was enjoyable but a lot of it was like, wow am i different. and i will continue to be different. i'm almost in my 21st year of life. looking back, its so interesting that something as simple as going out with a few friends made me feel like i was invincible, like my life had peaked. now i feel that way about things like the work that i do and where i live and stuff. also i was such a sad little drama queen. haha. i was just so sad and worried. all the time. and its like all of a sudden i have this entire new life to look at! proof, i guess, that things really do change if you give it time. as for life updates, i mean, i already don't do that much anymore so its not something i'm worried about. i've kind of watched myself grow up here on spacehey, haha. but yeah, even more privacy in 2024, honestly. whoever's been around since the first hyperspecifc 'here's my entire life' blogs, thx for reading them lol. i mostly use my blog space now to express myself vaguely. that part never changes. also taking my real name away from everything too. happy new year :)