who are you? what are you going to do?

today in RTTC we had to write an essay about either identity, experiences that shaped who you are, or a ticket and where or what you'd do with it. i didn't do it. we also had an interview where the teacher would pick us out one at a time and ask us, "what are two careers/career ideas you have in mind? what schools are you thinking of?" im passionate about things, but i have a problem where i'm not exactly always balanced and sure of my thoughts, feelings, opinions, etc, wtv wtv. Did i answer her questions though? yes, yes i did. i said my first career option or study option for college is film, video editing, and things of that nature. she wanted me to specify on career (title) a little more, so i said i'd like to try director, camera person, film editing. that kind of thing. my second career idea was coding, computer programming, server work. i don't have much experience or knowledge of coding and computer esque work, but i said film because its closer to one of my longest hyperfixations. i've had a long running interest, or hyper fixation, on youtube/youtube work. i guess that's the best way to explain it. i'd like to be a youtuber on the side or work for a youtuber as an editor or artist. it'd also be a good start for a/my career. 

continuing on the identity aspect of this all though, i don't know how to talk about who i am, really. i don't know how to explain how my passions and identity kind of shape me and what i'd want to do and whatnot. i'm not entirely sure of the kind of content i'd even make, sadly. maybe i'd make adventure like videos with friends, maybe i'd make gaming videos, or maybe commentary. i don't know. ill figure it out eventually, but right now i'm not exactly there yet. that's okay. i have an entire lifetime to do so, actually.