2024 Goals and Ughhh...resolutions

I don't know why but I greatly prefer saying goals and aspirations over resolutions. The word resolution has Almost become cursed or something. You say you're going to make a resolution and people don't expect you to actually go through with it. So here's my goals for the year instead.

I've got a quite a few. 

I wanna write more consistently. I write reviews and I do it really consistently but I missed out on two weeks recently. This Friday will be the start of my consistent review writing and I will allow myself 3 strikes because things happen but that's the first one. 

I also wanna improve my writing which can be done by reading, I read most everyday these days so I don't have to worry about that too much but I want to pick up a few books on film criticism and story telling. That sort of thing. I also want to write more short stories and actually put them out there. My short stories tend to be deeply personal so I've always been scared, if I do post them, you won't know because I kind of want it to be a secret thing. I want to post it more for myself than for others. 

I want to read atleast 15 books this year. That should be enough, right? I just wanna read more is all. I wanna track media better too. I have already spoken about that though.

I want to do actually start my website and learn html and css again. Useful skills, aside from them being used for my website. 

I wanna become an academic weapon. This might be tough but I'm putting my all in my school work this year, I want that university that I've been eyeing to accept me, not just accept me but I want them to beg me to apply. I'm turning it all around this year.

I wanna workout consistently too. Get back into the groove, yk? I don't have any fitness goals besides that. 

These two are the final ones and I saved them for last because they're the most important to me. I want to be more social and confident. It's my final year of high-school and I can't be a recluse. Last year, I tried to take every opportunity but what's the point if I'm not confident in myself. I need confidence!!!! I get too scared when I talk to people, I feel like there's no way someone can actually enjoy my company and I think everyone I know is pretending. 

Maybe I am going mad, only an insane person would think everyone around them is part of some big conspiracy and secretly hates them. I recognize how crazy that sounds and yet I still believe it. This year, I'm putting myself out there and I'm just going to try to let loose and calm down! Seriously, calm down! You're going mad. I'm not gonna worry too much about how I present myself or how I come off, I'm not gonna be an asshole but you know what I mean. 

Anyway, I don't know if it's the new year motivation that's getting to me or what but tomorrow we return to our regularly scheduled programming. I'm done taking it easy, I need to get back to my improvement grind. Let's gooooooo! See you then I guess.