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this might be more philosophy, but i dont really are about that right now. right now, i want to talk about recent events in my life that have made me sort of, go down hill. my fear of religion has sort of exploded and led me down the shitter. it started off as a fear of who i am and getting caught while still hiding that aspect of who i am. currently, or more recently, its been me being told that i have to improve and better myself and my own mental health through religion. ive been told that i can cure all ill feelings towards myself and the world, that every anxiety and thing that makes my brain stupid and more difficult can go away with god's will. i dont think i believe that though. i think that i think none of that is real. however, my fear still stands strong. i am afraid of hell and of gods judging eyes because in reality they arent his eyes. theyre my parents eyes, the watchful and judging gaze that i am put under. i want to talk more about this, about being told my issues can be solved through a religion that im so afraid of and that i dont even believe in. im not sure what i want to dig in to more of it specifically, but i know its a subject id like to touch.
How does religion and philosophy have such a blind rule over people's ideas on mental health? why must i and others be told that with an ignorant and blind following of god, all my mental health will be fixed? why must i feel stupid for being aware but silent of it all?
sorry, i think.
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nikko0
I don't understand religion either, all my life I've been raised to worship god n stuff okay cool you're into that and I'm not, its just weird, especially when I've heard that sum bibles were rewritten cuz it ain't kid friendly idk, i kinda do believe in god but not to the point of devoting my whole life to religion, religion is so weird, its also hard to believe in whats true or not, ig this is where faith comes in, but still what about those other ppl in other religions, we're always saying to respect them but then in the end who is right or wrong???? kinda rambled there but religion is an interesting topic to me cuz the religion my parents raised me in made me question everything
oh and my mom said smthg about, without devotion kids these days have too much time to think, so they think and think until they question everything, this is why devotion to god is good, it helps u be happier ig (i think its a dumb reason but whatever)
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SORRY FOR RAMBLING AGAIN
by nikko0; ; Report
DUDE DW FOR RAMBLING BUT YEAH! that whole 'devotion makes you happier' is where blind faith and following come in to play. it can, like its possible, for it to make you happier because youre not questioning everything and having a crisis over it. but is it really worth it? because it feels like with that blind devotion, the end result is just living in delusion. like youre trying to push away your fears and never truly growing from them.
by Vflip; ; Report
im not sure i really believe in a god, but i know that its totally left an impact on me because ill find myself desperate to have the reassurance of blind following despite being aware of how i feel about it. i want that same safety and blanket that comes with blind religious devotion. when im scared or feel like im choking for air at times, ill find myself praying and crying. yet in the end, i feel it goes to nothing. im afraid hell might be real, but i dont feel strongly on any relgion. i dont really believe in an idea of heaven or some big guy up in the sky. its confusing to me but its so interesting.
by Vflip; ; Report
True, I don't wanna live my life in constant fear, they're always saying enjoy life while you still can, unless you're me who constantly overthinks everything, mental illness r so weird to, idk how i even developed it, like im not traumatized or anything i just have it?? man it sure sucks to be a human
by nikko0; ; Report
YEAH WHENEVER I PRAY ITS LIKE IM PRAYING TO NOTHING, no offense if god is real
by nikko0; ; Report
YES!! THE WHOLE DEVELOPING OR FINDING OUT ABOUT BEING NUERODIVERGENT OR HAVING MENTAL ILLNESS!! its sometimes hereditary but also could be like forgotten trauma apparently?? idk its another interesting topic that could be cool to touch on
by Vflip; ; Report
and yeah, no offense if god just happens to be real. but.. you cant expect me to believe that everything happens for a reason, because he wants it to or that everything is created in his image. i just cant believe that some red guy created all the bad and that the white one made all the good. WHICH IS ANOTHER THING. the whole white washing and white-eurocentric version/vision of god is crazy because like?? hello?? why is the biggest idea of god a white man with all power? he wasnt even white??
by Vflip; ; Report
in the religion i was raised in there was no definite description of god he's just a guy in the sky, but yeah with jesus... HOW DO U KNOW THEY'RE WHITE??? theres just so many holes in the religion logicc
by nikko0; ; Report
yeah!!! and the whole homosexuality thing is weird too because the original verse was "man shall not sleep with boy" or smth because it was in reference to p3d0philia being a sin and today people will say the verse was 'with man' as in two dudes but like?? cmon?? are we really gonna equal them to eachother?
by Vflip; ; Report
ironically recently i asked my mom abt this out of curiosity, she said that it was gods command for 2 gey men to do the devils tango, so i asked if being partners was fine she said no??? cuz woman r made for men and vice versa AAAAAA
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*NOTT
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i hate mobile
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HELP? its okay 4 typos lmao but HELLO? so they can do the thingy but can be in love??
by Vflip; ; Report
they can't have fun and they can't be in love, I feel like that's just an excuse to be homophobic
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oohh yeah, people dont like it so they'll use it as an excuse to be homophobic and its kinda sad how strong hate is sometimes
by Vflip; ; Report
oohh yeah, people dont like it so they'll use it as an excuse to be homophobic and its kinda sad how strong hate is sometimes
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