i haaattteeee

my year this 2023 was the worst, I've had so many depressive episodes, I've been constantly burdened by the fact that i cannot talk to people without it being awkward, whenever i try to approach a person irl or even in dms it always seems like I'm bothering them and it makes me think they're annoyed, i just wanna be able to talk to people without constantly worrying about how i might be annoying them.

another trait of mine is whenever i feel a little too tired of the person— i just stop talking to them overall, ignoring their messages and refusing to interact with them, i feel like someone wanting to have friends who also gets tired of people easily isn't the right pair.

hopefully my year is better this upcoming 2024, 2023 is by far the most depressing year for me ever.