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I want to destroy everything. I want to run away. I don’t deserve anything. There is no redeeming qualities about me. I am not funny. I am not smart. I am not kind. I am selfish. I am a coward. I am an attention seeker. Nobody deserves to be with someone as terrible as me. I can never accept the few friends that I have who actually tolerate me. Why. I am not special. I am so replaceable. They would be better off with somebody else. I am so boring and dull. All I do is vent. Why even bother. Stop caring about me. Please stop caring. I want people to hate me. Just as much as I do myself. Everyone should lie about how they feel for me. They only feel pity. I deserve no real respect.