habe das Jahr geschlossen

freitag 809

i have not the slightest idea if anything i’ve previously written is grammatically correct, or if it makes any sense. i do not care for it, at least i’m making an effort.

this is my last post for the year, which is neither cathartic nor interesting considering that i sporadically write here, and when i do i make bare sense. anyway, my life has been good. i am visiting my mothers’ family and spent christmas with them (will probably also spent new years here), it’s been comfortable and rather expensive considering i’ve decided to completely transform my closet and have been buying clothes like crazy. i fear for my fathers’ debit card.

above all those things, though, my best and most important acquisition is my kindle—i am irrevocably and utterly in love. it’s perfect, an 8gb miracle that that holds, as of now, 59 books from which i’ve read about 9. i didn’t want to submit to the amazon mastermind, but i am human after all and, thus, malleable.

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lets now imagine i’ve talked about many other things and have made an astounding initial sentence that will lead to my summary of this year: 2023.

it was a good, weird, deplorable, exciting, miserable, repetitive year. i started college, met nearly no one, had weird platonic and romantic relationships, involved myself and actually lost my anxiety while also shedding (yes, shedding) a ton of weight. i got lasik, a kindle, many, many books, including several copies of my favorite, and drank a lot of alcohol. i can say, with some level of certainty, that this year has been good to me, and i’m finishing it rather pleased. there are some expectations i have for next year, but they’re not too big neither too hopeful, i mainly wish for a good routine and a nice, entertaining misadventure. 

so, to close, i’ll make a list of what i expect to happen next year:

• i’ll meet with an ex, either n. 03 or 04, but i hope it’s no. 01.
• my grades will maintain, both in german classes and in college.
• lots, and lots, and lots of routine.
• pastries and hazelnut lattes.
• hopefully a fifth edition of my favorite book.
• fated meeting with the actual love of my live: the idealized version of ramiz rafi mirza.
• weird movies and even weirder books.
• enjoyable outings with friends.
• solitude.
• sultana scones.