Emotional Dumping/ Venting

I don't know where to begin. But so much is going on simultaneously. Im a trans man. been in transition for exactly 1 year 4 months 18 days. I had top surgery oct 15 and then had to have another surgery 2 weeks later to fix fix some things and add drains. Ive always been a loner and isolated myself from my family. its just weird I thought I had the support of my biological father. he has always been the one that I an be 100 with. I came out via text and its not like he didn't know or I wasn't coming around since starting my transition. but the it got closer to surgery I needed to raise some last minute funds. I reached out he read my message and no reply. I let him know that I was fine and made it out of surgery no response. we really haven't talked at all actually. I don't talk to my mother at all and the crazy thing is she called me yesterday. I have both my parents numbers muted. I really just stay out the way and mind my business. I don't want to be a burden and the choices I've made for my life is for me and made me happy in my life. I've done everything for everybody else and im living for me. I can't continue to live for everybody else and not me. I went to jail last year really at the beginning of my transition. Im just ready to be where I wanna be in life. stable with a regular Job supporting myself and my family. I've filed for my name change and everything. its just hard beings passing until its time to pull out my i.d. to get into the club or buy a drink or go to the doctor when im sick and them saying Miss dead name like its truly exhausting on a daily basis. im so thankful for this new part time job they respect me call me my preferred name and use the correct pronouns. Its hard dealing with emotions soberly. all I do is smoke weed daily but I noticed that I was masking and numbing my emotions with blunts and backwoods. as soon as a minor inconvenience or major one im lighting up the blunt. I find myself frustrated constantly and it eventually turns into anger. im tired of being so angry and frustrated. I just want to be carefree and worry free about the lil things. and I truly mean the little things like going to a public bathroom, pulling out my i.d. for a drink etc. but hopefully me writing and venting will be the release im seeking.