Day 79 of taking it easy because i am Madness maddened (and i talk about literature so beware)

I almost forgot to write this one...

• I'm still sick
• Comfort content 
• Moby dick rotting my brain even further 
• Conclusion 

I remember there was quite a bit of concern about my diarrhea yesterday and today and I really appreciate that. Thank you for the concern. Every time someone expressed concern I usually said that I was feeling better already. I felt great at the end of yesterday, I almost wanted to dig into some dessert but I didn't, I had some restraint. I woke up this morning expecting to feel better but ughhhhh, I don't. It should be gone tomorrow! Let's hope and then we can look back at this and laugh, right? I want to go to the beach tomorrow as well so I can't be sick. I also want dessert again. Also, just a word of advice, when people tell you to stay hydrated if you have diarrhea, do it. I am a really hydrated person, water is like all that I drink but the diarrhea sucks all the liquid out of my body, I was so lightheaded and faint. I just wanna feel better already...

Since I'm sick and all, I figured that I should watch some comfort content. I booted up some old Oneyplays let's plays and I can't recommend Oneyplays in good faith but I can recommend AVGN season 2 because I've also been watching some old AVGN. You may think of me as an intellectual because my status says "world's 2nd best debater" and im always on about literature but I can assure you AVGN is the funniest thing ever, I'm not even gonna try to hide it. He's talking about diarrhea dumps straight from a bull's anus and it's the funniest thing ever. You know I realized that I am literally the guy from Thug Notes. He's this guy who describes classic literature using slang so desperate teenagers can understand what they just read. He's literally me but then again I also think I'm Hamlet, I think I'm delusional. This morning I was told that I have "Shakespeare brainrot" and I don't know if I should take it as a compliment or an insult but what it is, is the truth! I can't deny it.

What's making my brainrot worse is Moby Dick with all its Hamlet references. Apparently we're going to the beach tomorrow and I can't wait to read Moby Dick on the beach. This is the closest I'm getting to boarding an actual whaling ship and hunting an actual Whale. I know im not supposed to like Ahab but he's so real, I understand why he does what he does. This one dude, Starbuck thinks that Ahab is insane for wanting to catch Moby Dick and then there was this beautiful, short chapter that really described the way that Ahab felt. It's his soliloquy, if you will.

Now let me explain. It's self explanatory but without context of the prior chapters, it must be confusing so please indulge me on this one. First of all he describes the sunset beautifully like the waves blushing like wine, so beautiful! Then Ahab talks about his responsibility as a captain, he compares himself to a king evident through the word "crown" and this isn't what the study guides say but my interpretation of his crown being iron and not gold is that as the captain of a ship, he's not well respected but he still has a heavy responsibility that pains him and this Whale has given him nothing but anguish, some of the others on the ship hunt whales for enjoyment but Ahab is hunting Moby Dick solely for vengeance and he cannot enjoy the calm ocean anymore. I've spoken about him throwing out the pipe, which symbolized him tossing aside human pleasures in pursuit of Moby Dick. Here's the next page...

I thought when he said he was damned in the midst of paradise that he considered the ocean to be paradise and maybe that could be the case but I would also say that him being captain is seen as paradise which he can't enjoy because of Moby Dick. We can skip the part about him being the match and lighting the fire or whatever but another part that stands out to me is how he confirms what Starbuck says. He says one of my new favorite book quotes "They think me mad-Starbuck does; but I'm demoniac, I am Madness maddened! That wild madness that's only calm to comprehend itself!" Let's call back to another book I was reading but put on hold to finish Moby Dick, Catch 22. In Catch 22, the only way pilots could get out of the war was if they were crazy and they couldn't say they were crazy or that would mean they were sane if they recognized their craziness. Ahab recognizes that he is mad and declares himself madder than even Starbuck thinks he is but the recognition that he is mad, shows us that there is some sanity in him. That small quote gives us some humanity to the mythical Ahab. Oh no! I am Madness maddened, the brainrot! The horror! The horror! By the way does anyone know what that's a reference to, when I say "the horror...the horror" i say it a lot and it's a reference to a movie but also a book that I really like. Anyway! Enough literature! I'm really really sorry for that unwanted analysis of Moby Dick Chapter 37.

There was gonna be another section but it's getting late and this is getting too long, maybe I can mention that tomorrow but man, I just wanna watch Better Call Saul and AVGN and read more Moby Dick so I'm gonna end it right here. Thank you for reading though and thank you for indulging me with my weird literature analysis. Goodbye!