brah

I am fighting demons, the urge, and Satan himself to not text my ex right now. I miss her so much it hurts me bro. She was so amazing to me and I feel like I could've done something to fix it or something. But I know that's not true. It was mainly her parents that caused us to break up, which sucks. Maybe we will reconnect in the future when we are both in college and we cross paths at a random bar. But that's unrealistic. I want to talk to her again but I know that that'll be bad for the both of us. I just wonder how she's doing fr. Who knows. I don't feel like asking friends or whatever but I still wanna know. The only thing I DO know is that I gotta find myself a masc/stud for a quick fling so I can GET OUT OF THIS STATE OF MIND ARGHHHHH