moving on (process)

we broke up 5 months ago now and moving on gotta b the most bipolar thing ever one day i’m good , talking to other bitches and everything and the next day i’m wondering how me and my ex even broke up. i start thinking was i the problem? it’s shit like that- that makes moving on so hard , bc i cant sit here and tell you i don’t love her bc in truth , i truly do. i tried hating her to leave her alone it worked at first , but later i realized i was lying to myself and i was at the same spot i was in 3 months ago. and i’m ngl some days i’m at peace with not having her in my life but then i see her and realize tht shi not easy at all i’m very broken rn my feelings are all over the place i need to relax and just let all of this take it’s toll

and P.S. i’m doing fine rn just a calm lüh blog