21/12/23 ugh

Just one class today. Dragon is not early like other times so I'm alone for a long time. I also forgot my powerbank at home so I can charge my phone only a bit before class starts.

Berry sits too much near so he ends up in my periferal vision and I could not hate it more.

Today we had to paint alongside the prof, so he set up a projector for us to view and a camera behind him pointed in the painting and you could barely understand the colors or what he was doing so that went horribly and I genuinely wanna burn it.

And that's another thing I'll have to do over and over again at home during the "holidays" that are literally less than two weeks long. 

End of the class, I take my time to clean everything n stay outside in the parking lot a bit, waiting for my classmates, they take their sweet time but when I saw what looked like berry getting out of the gate, I went over to another bus stop, more far away, cus I had to let this bus go as berry was in time to take it.

So I light up a cigarette fighting the worst fucking wind ever, let the bus go and then the next. Can't go home yet unfortunately.

Gotta get some supplies from the art store. I spend way too much there, tbh I rlly didn't need a lot, gifted myself a promarker cus it's Xmas and I have spending problems, had to get new watercolors unfortunately, cus even tho I dont wanna spend on watercolors since I wanna be fucking done with them once my class ends but with less pigments mixing becomes a fucking mess.

On the train, off the train, on the train off the train and no actually, ticket checking

And I'm an idiot so I didn't validate it on my app at the start of the month. And oh look my first fine ever, just in time for Christmas. 50 bucks down the drain.

Why am I such an idiot. He puts in the code of the ticket and not my personal infos, at least he says, so ig I'm still clean in the eyes of the law. And I will not fucking tell my aunt that's for sure, as soon as I'm home I destroy this fine. This never happened as far as I'm aware.

Ugh it was just so avoidable it makes me mad. I was tryna save money for noise cancelling headphones. And 50 bucks is so much money

The next train is in a whole hour so I have to wait with this fucking cold for a long time and i.dont.have.mypowerbank and if I was a bit faster at the art store I could have gotten on an earlier train. And I maybe would have avoided the fine. And I just wanna cry and die and go home and sleep.

That's ab it 

A ghost writing from its grave, signing off.