being better than everyone day 6692

i am so sick of being dismissed and diminished by my roommates it's literally going to drive me CRAZY if it hasn't already

I've literally taken to ignoring my roommates when they call out for me for my sanity. is that proper etiquette morally? no. i don't give a fuck though

electra literally will give me the silent treatment and will disagree with me on the stupidest things as if I'm the biggest villain in the world incapable of ever being a good roommate as if she isn't always bringing her friends over and being loud as fuck at 1 am when I'm trying to sleep

also no hate but she's a film major and she doesn't even know how to use a proper camera and wants to shoot a film in one night with no script just ideas in her head. get your shit together. 

anita isn't horrible but she is really stubborn and it can really annoy me especially when it comes to dishes. at least she meshes well with my goofiness and we understand each other at least a little more than our non theatre-major counterparts.

roman is literally so uncooperative sometimes and it's so annoying as i can never really trust her or befriend her. that ship has sailed and whenever i ask questions to her she treats me like I'm a fucking idiot for them and idk if it's some misunderstanding or what but it is so grating

stasia is okay but. she threw out a bunch of my crap once and i was really sad but i know she felt bad so. it's just that she's sort of complicit and doesn't seem to see everyone else's rude behavior towards me sooooo yeah also roman's her best friend for life so obviously if anything happened i would not have anyone on my side

I'm just. sigh. i can't wait to move out and have my own space and only have james annoying me instead. but it wouldn't be annoying annoying it would just be like a best friend trust annoying. 

the worst part is like i really like all of their friends! they're such fun people but probably just as bad roommates

they should all move in together and drive each other crazy

they're probably gonna do that. in Brooklyn. also as a wallflower i just see how they exclude some people who aren't as tightly knit into the friend group and it makes me feel bad for them as a lot fo them deserve better. whatever

i feel like roman and electra just hold a lot of jealousy towards me because i have experience in the fields they're pursuing (they wanna start a band and are trying to study acting and film) so they just sort of project that onto me in unhealthy mannerisms and not to toot my own horn or anything but their inexperience shows in the work they try to create and they don't seem to have ever followed through on anything so.

i hope this film flops that they're trying to shoot in 8 hours HAHA loooooooooosers