idk why i feel like shit (16/12)

ok, I'm definitely going through another episode and I've already accepted it. I know it will be temporary so I'm trying to kinda make amends with what I'm feeling. I think that's the healthiest thing to do rn.

I talked to Fran and he says that maybe that's just the way I am, maybe there's nothing that's really causing these ups and downs, but it's fine as long as I have a healthy coping mechanism. I'm not that worried tho bc I know I have awesome friends and boyfriend that will be next to me through everything... that warms my heart.

on the other hand, things have been good lately. I was able to get something I've wanted for years, my health is getting better, I got a small raise at my job. in general, I am grateful with the universe that I am alive and well and not missing anything. 

I've also been fantazising most of the time for a week or so? I got to re-read some old af fanfics and I really want to finish them/write a new one, I just can't think about something I'm passionate enough to write about. also, reading the most recent ones (they're barely a year old), I could see that I really improved my writing skills in the course of a couple years with the help of reading and writing many fanfics hahaha. in general I just really like my writing style.

ayway, that's my life recently.

good night, cuties <3